If it weren’t for my ability to laugh uncontrollably at just about anything, including myself(I’m hilarious to myself,) I’m not sure I’d have made it this far in my life.
Party Pooper
I am supposed to go to a birthday party tomorrow. I haven’t been to one since the 6th grade, so it’s not really even the same thing. I’m extremely nervous, I don’t do well in social situations. I want to go though because the girl is super sweet, and I have wanted to hang out with her since Halloween. I don’t know what to do, I will probably end up forcing myself to go because I’m sure I will have fun, and I need to push myself to be a more social person. Plus I would be going with like my best friend so I will at least have someone to hang out with. I don’t know, there is a lot going on right now, lots of ups and downs for me emotionally right now. I’m rambling, I haven’t written anything here for a long time. Just hoping this will help me sleep, but I didn’t really get anything out of my system cause it’s hard on a BlackBerry ha ha. It would probably be best for me to just set it down and try to sleep. And I’m rambling again, so goodnight/morning.
My Spur of the moment Halloween costume from last night! Blue fairy from Pinocchio, my two friends were Pinocchio and Jiminy Cricket. I had a mask and wand and stuff but I had it off ha ha!
Blanket of Laughter
I recently realized that I use laughter to express a large portion of my emotions; sadness, anger, jealousy, confusion, intimidation, and many other uncomfortable emotions. It’s like my security blanket, always there to protect me from possible confrontation. No matter what the occasion I always find a way to laugh it off. I have been doing this for as long as I can remember; all to try and keep the people around me happy, by making them think I am always happy, and not letting them know how they sometimes make me feel. I realized this obsession with making everyone around me happy has hindered my ability to seek my own happiness, which should be what is most important to me. It is almost impossible for me to express my emotions the way I am actually feeling them inside, all because I don’t want to hurt the other person the same way they are hurting me. Throughout the day all the incidents pile up, and by the time I get into bed I have a whole list of things that I wish I would have done that day instead of laughing. So I lay in bed for hours and hours thinking about what I should have said or done to possibly steer the situation in a different direction than the end I was bringing it to with my laughter. I do love to laugh though, and making others laugh is one of my favorite things to do. I just wish I could find a way to stop expressing everything I feel with laughter. I want to be able to have an actual conversation with people when they make me feel a certain way, instead of hiding behind the laughter, and leaving the problems for my personalities to sort through at night. Anyways, I don’t really know what more to write. I was just really thinking about this last night as I was reliving the day’s events, and manipulating them in my head. Sort of hoping that it would get it out of my mind, they say writing stuff down helps sometimes. This is sort of all over the place but I just wrote what came to me. Didn’t really read back through it. IMA RAMBLER! -Houston If you do this same thing or something similar I’d love to hear from you!
We the jury find the defendant…..
Stole this from Billy. :)
RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
(So people reading this, if you want an explanation.. comment.)
RULE 3
You have to be honest!
Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent.
Kissed one of your Facebook friends?
Guilty.
Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent.
Ever told a lie?
Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back?
Guilty.
Ever had feelings for your friend’s woman?
Innocent.
Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty.
Kissed a picture?
Innocent.
Slept in until 5 PM?
Innocent.
Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty.
Held a snake?
Guilty.
Been suspended from school?
Innocent.
Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent.
Stolen from a store?
Guilty.
Been fired from a job?
Innocent.
Done something you regret?
Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty.
Sat on a roof top?
Guilty.
Kissed someone you shouldn’t?
Guilty.
Sang in the shower?
Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent.
Shaved your head?
Innocent.
Slept naked?
Guilty.
Had a boxing membership?
Innocent.
Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Innocent.
Been in a band?
Innocent.
Donated Blood?
Innocent.
Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty.
Still love someone you shouldn’t?
Guilty.
Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent.
Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent.
Been too honest?
Guilty.
Ruined a surprise?
Guilty.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can’t walk afterwards?
Innocent.
Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty.
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if your a guy) or man’s clothes (if your a girl)?
Innocent.
Joined a pageant?
Innocent.
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Innocent.
Had communication with your ex?
Guilty.
Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent.
A total stranger treat you by paying your bus fare?
Innocent.
Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty.
Stolen somebodies partner?
Innocent.
Made yourself throw up?
Innocent.
Wanted to be someone else?
Guilty.
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Here is VoiceMail #2 from my mom, apparently my aunt and cousin saw this picture on my Facebook and were ‘concerned’ ha ha!! :)
Click Here for VoiceMail #1
