I am supposed to go to a birthday party tomorrow. I haven’t been to one since the 6th grade, so it’s not really even the same thing. I’m extremely nervous, I don’t do well in social situations. I want to go though because the girl is super sweet, and I have wanted to hang out with her since Halloween. I don’t know what to do, I will probably end up forcing myself to go because I’m sure I will have fun, and I need to push myself to be a more social person. Plus I would be going with like my best friend so I will at least have someone to hang out with. I don’t know, there is a lot going on right now, lots of ups and downs for me emotionally right now. I’m rambling, I haven’t written anything here for a long time. Just hoping this will help me sleep, but I didn’t really get anything out of my system cause it’s hard on a BlackBerry ha ha. It would probably be best for me to just set it down and try to sleep. And I’m rambling again, so goodnight/morning.